Look into your heart and recieve God’s changes

I picked up a camp chair in the garage one night last week to put it in the car. I didn’t see the wasp that was on the strap, but he saw me. The pain he inflicted on the fleshy pad of my middle finger, as Bill Cosby used to say, was tremendous. I put some ice on the finger, and we took off for the baseball game. I had been driving for 15 minutes when out of my peripheral vision, I saw something crawling on my shirt, toward my face. A wasp. My son grabbed it while I tried to remain calm and steer the automobile. I began to wonder if maybe that wasp had been assigned to me. Here’s the question: What if you knew every time you walked into your garage you would be stung, not by just one but by 100 wasps, and there was nothing you could do about it? What would you do? You wouldn’t go there any more, right? You would park your car in the street. You would tear down the garage. Or you would sell the house and move. If you could not get rid of the wasps, they would essentially get rid of you.
Here is a second question: What if you knew that every time you took an honest look at your own heart, it caused you intense pain? You remember the last time someone wanted to talk with you about something they saw in you that hurts people, because of your words or your tone or your facial expressions. You did not want to, but you listened to them anyway and managed to survive the ordeal without your head exploding. You even mumbled a promise to your friend that you would consider the things they said, and you tried. But every time you went there in your thoughts, it just hurt too much. You ended up, each time, consoling yourself, telling yourself that you are not really that bad. “I am who I am, and if so-and-so doesn’t like me this way, well, that’s his problem!” Satisfied that you had examined your heart, you walked away with even more resolve that this would not happen again, that it was just too hard to deal with, just too painful. Your heart got a little harder, your friends a little more distant.
David actually prayed, “Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me, and know my anxieties; and see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me …” David asked God to help David see himself without hypocrisy or pretense. Joseph Addison said, “Hypocrisy … conceals a man’s own heart from him and makes him believe that he is more virtuous than he really is.” Todd Wilson said that women tend to believe that they are worse than they really are, and men tend to believe that they are better than they really are. He said a woman can spend two hours getting ready and look in the mirror and say, “You look terrible.” A man can stand in front of the mirror in his underwear, 50 pounds overweight, and say out loud, “You still got it!”
The truth is we are all standing before God just like we really are, and our prayer must be, “O God, I know I am so quick to lie to myself about myself. Would you please show me the truth?”
God is willing and able to pull out the poison from our hearts. Put down the camp chair and go to the mirror of the Word. He will meet you there.